It took a while before I finally decided to upload the final film in Facebook. I've had a few friends asking me to show them the film, but I just told them that I'd upload it soon. My hesitation stems from how personal this work is--not just because I'd literally shed tears in doing this project, but because it is a personal story. I was protective of it like any Hollywood movie stars protective of their newly-born babies from the paparazzi or the way Pia Magalona is to Francis M's last recordings.
Sino ba naman ang gugustuhing pulaan ang kanilang trabaho ng kung sinu-sino lang? No matter how bad it turned out to be, baby ko pa rin siya. I wouldn't just let anyone say anything bad against it. (Pero kung pangit man siya sa standards ko pa lang, hindi na ko magkakalakas pa ng loob na ipakita siya sa iba.)
Ayoko rin namang makatanggap ng sobra-sobrang papuri from people who feel obliged to do so just because we're related or we're friends. Hindi rin naman ako mapapanatag sa ganu'n. I want some objectivity and not biases.
If I sound too critical of what others might think about my film, it is because I am critical about it myself. I have wanted to do a film of my own, and I didn't want to screw it up kahit pa sabihing I have a huge margin of error since it's my first time.
Fortunately, when I showed the rough draft to my professor, nagustuhan na niya. When it was finally shown at mag.net Katipunan on March 25, 2010 and was judged by Auraeus Solito (of Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros), he liked it, saying that it could already be sent to gay and lesbian film festivals abroad. My professor added na mataas daw ang grades na nakuha ko.
Nakahinga na ako ng maluwag nang marinig ko 'yun. Sobrang pinaghirapan ko ito, and I'm very much proud of it!
Yet, at the back of my mind was the question, what now? What is the next step for me?
I don't know actually. But I'm hoping that this could be the start of something good!
Anyway, before you watch the film, here's a few guidelines Sabi nila, let the audience interpret the film for themselves. However, gusto ko pa rin ibigay ang mga bagay na ito dahil pelikula ko ito!
WARNING: Some scenes and theme may offend the sensibilities of some viewers. Watch it with caution (or not at all).
Synopsis:
Zombies walk amongst us. Tonight a zombie stares at his current flame as he reminisces happier days with his dead lover.
He dresses up in white with black linings in front of a broken mirror. After which he leaves the house and joins the land the living as other zombies often do.
* This is purely a visual medium, so everything you see on screen has a purpose.
* Lahat ng prop ay may sinasabi tungkol sa kuwento ng pelikula.
* Ang mga piniling kulay ay may dahilan. Maging ang texture ng kurtina at bed sheet ay may sinasabi. Maging ang suot ng karakter ay may kuwento.
* Ang basag na salamin ay hindi isang basag na salamin lamang. May kinalaman ito sa taong nakatingin dito.
* May palabas sa portable DVD player. Hindi nga lamang siya nakita masyado. But it is a BURIAL SCENE from the movie Nakapagapos na Puso.
* The scene with the DVDs, books, and cassette tape say a lot with what had transpired between the past and the present. Read the texts.
* Take note of the album ENDLESS LOVE by Diana Ross and Lionel Richie.
* May konting boo-boo sa bandang huli. Matapos pagtawanan, 'wag na pansinin. Wala na kong magagawa sa katangahan kong iyon. 'Yung nilalaman na lang ng eksena ang bigyang-pansin. Hehehe.
Ito rin ang isa sa naging puna ni Auraeus when he saw it. Other than that, OK sa kanya ang buong pelikula.
* There could be quite a few interpretations to the film's message. If you have your own, feel free to post a comment. I'd love to hear them.
* I am truly a Sharonian! Napakaraming Sharon references sa movie na ito. Hindi ko kinakahiya 'yon! :)
So, enjoy!
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