I had a rather "kakaibang" conversation with Oliver through text. "Kakaiba" because I never heard him so serious before. The "serious" Oliver had already shown with some of his e-mails in our e-group but this was the first time I've personally talked to him...
Vehr: happy birthday! tanda na natin 'no!
Jheck (thru chikka): thank u! oo nga e... medyo na-bo-bother na ko with the fact that we're fast approaching 30. at least una kayo ng isang taon kaysa sa kin. hehe.
Vehr: oo nga eh, ky lang tlagang gnun. klangang dumaan dun. mas maganda p kung malampasan p ntin un. nkktkot lng kc prng wlng major changes, puro minor p lng.
Jheck: siguro kailangan lang maging pursigido sa buhay. pero malay natin, during the 30s dumating yung talagang success. as long as di pa tayo mamatay...
Vehr: minsan nga prng mas masarap isipin un 2nd lyf kc ang hirap ng nag-aalala. at least dun wl ng hirap. pro minsan hahanapin dn ntin un chalenj khit gno kbigat.
Jheck: sympre depende un kung san ka makakarating sa 2nd life mo, pero wala mang problema run, makakayanan mo bang ndi makasama ang mga mahal mo sa buhay? i'd rather suffer with them beside me than be happy alone...
Vehr: un nga, db sbi dn kung cno ang magmahal ng sobra s knyng buhay ay syang mwwlan ni2 & vice. we jas hav 2 acept lyf as 8 cums. que sera2.
Jheck: ei! be positive! if you truly wish/pray hard enough, things would go your way. we're still in the first quarter of the year at marami pang ang pwedeng mangyari. be it positive or not, it'd be a learning experience!
Vehr: e2 sugestion lng, minsan nlng tyo mgkita2, sn mgkaron tyo tym pagusapan buhay2, kc s bar d tyo mkkpagusap, maingay. syang pgkakataon ntin.
Jheck: a un ba gusto mo? pde naman nating gawin yan anytime. masyado ka lang kcng tahimik tuwing nagkikita tayo. di pa naman sigurado ung pdeng mangyari this sat. ang sakit kc ng binti ko. two weeks na pero mas sumakit kagabi. di ako makapaglakad ng malayo. lets see if the pain would subside. gusto ko rin kc ung enjoy ako (supposedly "tayo"). bihira rin naman tayong lumabas ng ganun. lagi na lang tayo dito sa bahay. siguro we could go to tia maria's na lang if ever.
Vehr: sugestion lng nmn un, mtgal p sat, gagaling din yan, ako nga hinabol ng aso, gani2 kataas un bakod. lam mo nb un reunion daw? c ley dw orgnzr, wan ko kung 22o.
Jheck: sana nga gumaling na by sat. two weeks na kcng ganito o. di ko siya ma-bend. si joey nagbanggit ng reunion thru friendster. si leigh na mag-oorganize?
Vehr: un ang balita ko, ky lng prng cla2 lng ang nkakaalam. pnatingin mo nb yan s doc? bk klangan n ng PT nyan.
Jheck: ndi pa. pinapakiramdaman ko pa. oo nga, yaan mo na sila. kung yun ang gusto nila e. paano kaya nila kokontakin yung iba?
Vehr: 2 wks n pnpkiramdaman p rin, medyo mtgal n yan. bhala n cla bk m2lad lng dun s nauna dati. ptingin mo n, bk klangan ng masahe, malamang.
Jheck: pabalik-balik kasi. kala ko dahil luma na ung sapatos ko. manipis na swelas. kaya bumili ako bago. kagabi lang talagang tumindi. sana makalabas ng maaga si alam para maaga rin tayong makapagkita.
Vehr: malabo. hahabol na lng kmi.
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Now that I've read them once more, I felt somehow overwhelmed. The way Vehr talks about death as if it is just lurking around. I guess, he must be truly in turmoil these days. Not having a job would really irk someone up. Plus, we don't exactly know what has been going through his life these days...
